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Tag: poetry

  • The Two-Star Review

    Recovering Emotionally Before Physically

    Firstly, I write this to share an experience, not to defend myself.

    I received a two-star review on my very first violin sale with my new Etsy store. It’s amazing to me that two little stars can crush our hopes and dreams—if we let them. But if we can look at the situation objectively, not taking it personally, we can see it’s not the end of the world.

    Like it or not, we create the bad “reviews” and “dislikes” we get, and we get them by ignoring warning signs, among other things.

    I felt uneasy about shipping out that violin. I had interpreted those feelings as being afraid that something would go wrong, and it did. I had debated about how I was going to package the violin for shipping, and I chose the wrong solution.

    From the Buyer’s Etsy Review

    The fingerboard of the violin popped off with the pressure caused by the delivery process, even though I had “Fragile” stickers on the package. So, I learned a valuable lesson. It was a mistake that I was very forthright about fixing once I saw the review. I was never contacted by the buyer after multiple attempts.

    I was left to my emotions. I felt helpless and I’m not used to that. I’m used to facing problems head-on and taking care of them for an amicable resolution. This was not to be the case. I reached out by returning half of the cost of the violin and offered again to fix it. Instead, I took a big loss financially and emotionally. And I still heard nothing.

    Taking it Personally

    I haven’t had enough experience with selling my violins, or any other artwork I have created, to detach from the work emotionally. The emotions that rose up from this were ones of hurt, helplessness, vulnerability, and I felt my very character was attacked.

    These emotions are merely emotions; they are not who I am as a person. They do not define me.

    Still, it took me four weeks to process, and, at that time, I didn’t work on any violins, or practice, or take lessons (I was out-of-town for one of the lessons that I skipped.). I basically shutdown. I began to question my motives and abilities. I wanted to delete the entire Etsy store and quit. But I knew that wasn’t the way forward.

    Believing the Lies

    There are many lies coming against us daily. Lies that we aren’t good enough, that we won’t succeed, that we are failures, and that we will never amount to anything. These lies are spoken to us from traumatic pasts and fears of the future. They are positions of victimization that will end in victory and survival.

    We can thrive when we can define the lies and commit to never believe them again. There are opportunities in this process to reframe how and what we think about ourselves too. And we must. We must learn to love ourselves and to love others.

    Celebrate Anyway

    This experience has reignited my resolve to make and sell violins. I took friends out to lunch to celebrate the sale anyway. This learning opportunity humbled me to keep God even closer to me in the process of creating.

    Plus, my celebration is in the very Word of God. In Romans 12:19–21 Amplified version it says, “Beloved, never avenge yourselves, but leave the way open for God’s wrath [and His judicial righteousness]; for it is written [in Scripture], ‘Vengeance is Mine, I will repay,’ says the Lord. But if your enemy is hungry, feed him; if he is thirsty, give him a drink; for by doing this you will heap burning coals on his head. Do not be overcome and conquered by evil but overcome evil with good.”

    I didn’t need to do anything but be fair and pray.

    So, I forgave the buyer’s two-star review, and I trust God wholeheartedly to resolve the matter as my Defender. And I will keep moving forward with my Etsy store, my blog, and my YouTube channel with God’s mercy and grace.

  • I was Playing My Violin and I Finally Felt It

    Yesterday, Today and Tomorrow Violin by Jana Rawling

    What I felt was exciting and new. I had only dreamt of feeling that way. I’ve watched and listened to other musicians, and I could see and feel it happening to them. It’s something I’ve always wanted for myself.

    Here’s what happened. I was determined to play a piece of music for each of the violins I make to upload to my YouTube Channel @TheViolinLady. So, I got my first violin back from our local Luthier who had placed the sound post for me. I tuned the violin and sat down to play. I started playing a song that I am learning and was still not confident playing it. After a million mistakes, I decided to play a short piece that I composed myself. I figured I knew it better and if I can’t play that, I need way more practice and a better solution for sound tests.

    I played the song repeatedly and then it happened. I felt the notes in my heart and stomach. It was this indescribable joy that I felt. Each note I played I heard clearly as though I was part of the sound itself. My body responded by swaying to the music as if caught in some ethereal rhythm. I finally felt it.

    I felt the music. I felt each note. I felt every note blend into the next. And the best part, I felt hope. I felt it was possible that I could play that way. I could play out of my heart with passion. And now I’m addicted. I want to play that way all the time.

    So, that’s my new goal. Feel the passion for each note.

    On a side note: I asked God a year or so ago how to play the violin. He said, “There’s time for every note and every note has passion.” To add to that I recently heard, “Intonation is a choice for every note you play.” These words of wisdom are beginning to sink in.