I was Playing My Violin and I Finally Felt It

What I felt was exciting and new. I had only dreamt of feeling that way. I’ve watched and listened to other musicians, and I could see and feel it happening to them. It’s something I’ve always wanted for myself.

Here’s what happened. I was determined to play a piece of music for each of the violins I make to upload to my YouTube Channel @TheViolinLady. So, I got my first violin back from our local Luthier who had placed the sound post for me. I tuned the violin and sat down to play. I started playing a song that I am learning and was still not confident playing it. After a million mistakes, I decided to play a short piece that I composed myself. I figured I knew it better and if I can’t play that, I need way more practice and a better solution for sound tests.

I played the song repeatedly and then it happened. I felt the notes in my heart and stomach. It was this indescribable joy that I felt. Each note I played I heard clearly as though I was part of the sound itself. My body responded by swaying to the music as if caught in some ethereal rhythm. I finally felt it.

I felt the music. I felt each note. I felt every note blend into the next. And the best part, I felt hope. I felt it was possible that I could play that way. I could play out of my heart with passion. And now I’m addicted. I want to play that way all the time.

So, that’s my new goal. Feel the passion for each note.

On a side note: I asked God a year or so ago how to play the violin. He said, “There’s time for every note and every note has passion.” To add to that I recently heard, “Intonation is a choice for every note you play.” These words of wisdom are beginning to sink in.